Perhaps one day I will be nice. That day is not today.

I'm a bitch.
I'm a huge bitch.

Goodness, I try so hard to suppress it. But, sometimes I snap.

I'm better about it now than I used to be.
I'm better about it now than I used to be.
I'm better about it now than I used to be.

That's all I can keep telling myself.

And, I sometimes don't really care if I am a bitch.
I am a fucking decent person.
I try as hard as I can to be a good person.....
And, I am a damn good friend to have.

So, I have a standard for how I expect myself to be treated?
I've been burned and walked all over one too many times in the past.
And some of the wounds are still bleeding, so I don't apologize.

I try so hard.

But I can't take girls in general.
I can't take their stupid catty games.
I HATE it.

Actions speak louder than words.


Ugh.
Ok, I'm better now.

Sorry for anything that I may have started...